Realigning Perspective

I know there was to be a new post put up last week, I apologize for not meeting expectations in keeping with a weekly posting format. After another week of struggle with staying on track with some new practices, I decided to switch to a bi-weekly post format so as to not overload myself. Taking things down a notch was beneficial in giving a different perspective on the overall practice of staying on track. It was another round of emotional ups and downs, and has given me lots to evaluate. I spent much time in deep contemplation of my own principles and practices, and I took some time to simply relax in the moment.

The events, and emotions involved therewith, of the last couple weeks felt very sobering in the aspect of personal success. Of the many things I have to manage in my home, from finances to home maintenance to raising teenagers, I find it very hard at times to keep everything in a healthy balance. I would say the single parent struggle is the biggest emotional challenge I currently face, it makes me feel lonely even though I am not without people. I almost let it get the better of me again, and I was feeling overwhelmed and defeated to a slight degree. I purposely did no writing for days this week, as I was too into my feelings to do any focused writing. The anxiety did spike some, but fortunately not enough to throw me off balance.

I did make some interesting observations. I feel comfortable expressing this here because the person I'm about to talk about doesn't read my blog. Whenever going to [unnamed] to bring up or remind of something, it seems this person's go-to reaction is to get angry first and then justify the anger afterwards. It's always such a dramatic encounter, charged with emotion and 'bursting open at the seams.' I finally made it to the point of realization, where I was able to take a step back and assess the situation from a calm perspective and not a reactive perspective. From there we have been able to start some healthy dialog in respect to more positive communication.

I have realigned my plan of action, and for now feel it most appropriate to only work on a couple of goals. Of course I will share them here! I will be focusing on writing, and developing my learning plan. With fall just around the corner, it poses the perfect timing to get things in motion. When the weather starts to turn colder, I prefer to stay indoors and warm so I will have plenty of time to stay focused!

During the times I was stuck in my emotions this past month, I was actually questioning if writing everyday is really necessary. It felt like there would be no point in trying to keep up with a blog because I have not put in enough effort to bring new readers. The feelings as such snowballed, and when I felt that first twinge of wanting to just not keep a blog is when I knew I was going the wrong direction. That was a snap-to-it realization that I was in the wrong frame of mind, and was slipping back into old habits. Now that I have remembered how to step back into a positive mindset, I realize that writing is indeed a very beneficial practice. I'm going to need to be best friends with writing if I am to be ready for the goals that come next.

All things aside, I want to thank you for being there to read my blog, but I want to start hearing from my readers. If you're out there please leave a comment or join the community! Let's get some dialog started, I want to start creating discussions to help with perspective, motivation, etc. I will start sharing in more detail my “learning experiences” and some memorable moments that are relevant to the topic of the post as the blog continues. Please share this post with at least one other person, click the link in the top right corner! Have a beautiful day, keep it in perspective, and never give up!